It is like a gut feeling that tells me, "For something this good to happen, you're bound to receive an equal amount of bad things in return (and vice-versa)".
What a morbid and scary thought huh?
It is what I've heard long ago from friends or some place I can't remember; because of such, I try to restrain myself from enjoying stuff too much, or suffer the consequences. I don't know... Just something psychological?
I probably shouldn't worry about it, it is too freaky and has no basis whatsoever. But that's not to say I haven't experienced such things before. I've had my share of yin/yang universal balance of luck:
- Depression from failing to find a company to accept me/apply to ~> Got a call that I was accepted for a company (which I don't remember I've applied to) that everyone wanted to get.
- Celebrated the fact that we passed the screening for the Monbukagakusho (Japanese Government-sponsored scholarships) ~> We failed the exams.
- Lost hope when I got sick with Measles and missed my interview date for the Japan job ~> It was postponed and I got accepted.
- Told myself that everything's going smoothly and according to plan ~> found out just how hard it is to leave my company (and don't even get me started about the clearance).
There are others from a long time ago, but I cannot remember. I know I'm just being paranoid and overly superstitious, but you can never be too careful~
Is it karma? A Jinx? Or just plain luck?